Monday 31 December 2012

December 31st Reflections

Hello my friend. It's been awhile since I've let myself reflect on life and made myself vulnerable. December was a very difficult month. A month of acceptance of what I can't change . A month of grieving what I have lost. A month of celebrations to get through. A month of personal reflections. Is it any wonder my mind completely went blank? So a new blog , a new day dawning. Merry Christmas was not so Merry. Along with laryngitis, stomach flu, and my daughter Katie in emergency, my friend Marie in the hospital...Merry took on new meaning. For the last three years Merry Christmas has taken on new meaning. My life is not ribbon's or bows, tinsel and trimming...but hard gut wrenching reality, despite what my outsides have looked like ,my insides show different. I do not share my heart for sympathy but to maybe help another fallen soul. Merry-full of high -spirited gaiety, why do we wish that for others? We are wired to enjoy life and all that God has created for us. Yet we know in this life we will have trouble, the bible makes that clear. And to walk in the life God has designed for me I must learn to accept myself the way I am. A sinner saved by grace by the death of Christ on the cross. No more , no less.  A baby in a manager so many years ago, brought much joy to Mary and Joseph. A son hung on the cross brought the ultimate sacrifice. For you for me. I'm sure there was much sadness in the hearts of Jesus parents that day on the cross. Yet there sadness turned to rejoicing as Jesus the Messiah rose again, sacrificed His life to give us life. Everyone of us. So Merry Christmas offers us all hope. Merry, hope of a future. Hope of things to come. Courage to face another day. Maybe you feel like me. Maybe you don't feel very Merry. That's okay. God holds each tear in a bottle . He sees each hurt. He heals each wound. And that is what I look forward to in the New Year. Happy New Year Everyone. May it be Merry because He has made it Merry.