God In My Weakness

EVERYTHING
God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking

God in my sleeping
God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my wathcing
God in my waiting
God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing
Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything
Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything
You are everything
Jesus, Everything


Tim Hughes Holding Nothing Back Album - Song "Be My Everything"

How often have I tried to move forward in my own feeble power and ended up a heap on the floor? You think you can do this thing called life and you simply are not up to the task. I give up and give in. Just then God reaches down with His loving hands and lifts me up so I can walk again. He walks me through the barriers of life - in His limitless strength. That's the promise He gives to you to me. Whatever you may be facing today , don't give up , don't give in. Wait for those marvelous, loving hands to cover your own-and be ready to walk with delight as He walks with you. 

Monday Morning Thoughts

"You weren't an accident. You weren't mass produced. You aren't an assembly-line product. You were deliberately planned, specifically gifted, and lovingly positioned on the earth by the Master Craftsman." Max Lucado

 Forgive and give as if it were your last opportunity. Love like there's no tomorrow, and if tomorrow comes, love again.

 To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage. --Lao Tzu

 Where there is great love there are always miracles.-- Willa Cather

You can give without loving. But you cannot love without giving. -- Amy Carmichael

Okay so it's February and you are already overwhelmed by all the Valentines adds on TV.  I've heard it all before. "Don't need a special day to declare my love". Nope you don't . But anything to change the hectic pace of everyday run around and make you think about others outside your box is a good thing. I know I've been pondering love of sorts. And  just when I think I got it all figured out I screw up again. Sorry honey, I do tend to want my own way and after 31 years of marriage I still expect you to just KNOW what I need.
Seeing it was just my sons engagement I did get all mushy inside...ahhh...young love , like holding a newborn baby , nothing else in the world compares to it. And then thoughtful deep thinker pessimist that I am...life will change, reality will set in. And shame on me.
 Life happens, sorrows overwhelm us at times, but why is this love thing so hard to grasp and keep? WHY? Why is my heart sometimes more broken then mended? I must confess my focus is on my circumstances and not on the creator. My relationship must first be towards heaven and God, and then towards other people. Horizontal and then vertical. And when circumstances overwhelm me I need to remember I am loved. Always. At the cross. Today and forever. And I want you to know and remember you are loved always.

Know who you are

Loved By You
Paul Baloche and Lincoln Brewster

River flow from Your throne
From Your heart through my soul
Healing flood God of peace
Speak Your word and quiet me

I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You
I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You (Jesus)

Mercy rain fall on me
Hide me now beneath Your wings
Hold me close to Your side
For I am Yours and You are mine

Open up wide Your arms and my eyes
Take all I have and make it Yours
You've given Your life and now I'm alive
To worship you now forevermore

I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You Jesus
I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You Jesus
I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You oh

I have been chosen by God.

I have been adopted in His family.
I am loved.

How sweet to hear these words.

If I am adopted , I have become a child; God is no longer my judge but my Father. D.L. Moody

Not Me

Wasn't gonna do it . No sir ree...is that even a word? No way , no how. But, there I was back at Jimmy Pattison Pavilion having an x-ray done. Seems my frozen shoulder ,which still keeps giving me trouble is not a frozen shoulder at all, but has stumped the new specialist. It's not the x-rays that were the problem It's not even stumping a new doctor, did the same thing to the new Chiropractor that I'm seeing. Or the physio therapist that's still working on my ankle. If you are counting that's three different doctors on one body at once, but who's counting? Feeling pretty fortunate that so many doctors are in line to help me. No , no its not those things. It's the pit in my stomach that opens up my memories. Every older gentlemen that sits in the waiting room is being scrutinised by me. Yup , I stalk them. What is there daughter like? He has my dads smile. And my heart does a leap and I plunge into conversations about why they are getting tests done. And I so want to hug them and tell them how lucky they are to be alive. Crazy huh! And sometimes in a weird way maybe its not so bad getting all these tests done. It gets me  chance to rub shoulders with older people. The people in there last stages of life who take time to smile back in a full waiting room and do not hide behind a cell phone. Such a time as this can sometimes be very lonely.
Thankful for:
1. Memories
2. My husband who takes care of me
3. Doctors who want to help, despite my unbelief
4. I really rocked the blue hospital gown at the x-ray clinic
5. A day to celebrate new love, congrats Mattias and Stacey-happy engagement
6. Fresh sheets and a clean house
7. Partying with friends